For a while I said I’d write about Caviar, but I realized the story isn’t over. The company I started three years ago with four other guys is moving steadily away from my orbit and growing tremendously under Square. Now on sabbatical, I have more peaceful days waking up to my beautiful wife Melis and exotic shorthair cat Ramen.
In Interstellar, Matthew McConaughey’s character Cooper (spoilers, obviously) yanks the pull handles as his spacecraft is falling apart, tumbling into the black hole. Inside that IMAX, I could feel the vastness of the void separated by mere centimeters of polycarbonate glass. What happens now? It feels familiar as I stare into the future unknown. But for the first time, I’m not suppose to know, and that is exciting.
A good friend of mine suggested that I do something completely non-work related, so I’ve booked a writing class and enrolled at a music production school. I’m dusting off my photography lenses with Melis’ new blog, Fashion Mews.
I’m also entering my 2nd reading renaissance at 29. Remember when you could binge-read a book like The Hobbit or Calvin & Hobbes and lose track of the entire week? I’ve almost forgotten how it feels to read voraciously for fun. I highly recommend Love’s Executioner by Irvin Yalom, a memoir of excellent short essays on psychotherapy patients and their tribulations with ego, guilt, and obsession.
Lastly, I’ve realized how many broken friendships, missed birthday dinners, and closed doors were scattered behind me. I’ve exhausted the good will of some folks and made enemies. Winston Churchill said, “You have enemies? Good. That means you’ve stood up for something, sometime in your life.” But I feel its bitter permanence and walls of silence. For that, I’m sorry I came up short. Time will tell.
If you’ve gotten this far, I’ll leave you with my roadmap in 2015, which is shaping up to be most excellent. One of my best friends KC is getting married in June and I’m a Best Man, my first. Melis and I are looking to live in Turkey for a bit. I’ve always wanted to lazily move from town to town, and what better excuse than my wife’s homeland? As always, I’m looking to see if I can still build another company, so let’s talk!
Many of you have big years coming up, professional and personal goals to conquer. I cannot promise a safe landing, nor if it’s possible. But, to quote a famous astronaut from said previous film, “No, it’s necessary.”
Thanks to Melis for reading drafts of this post.